A strange mixture of feelings dominate my heart this week.
Next Monday's CT scan followed by a doctor's appointment on Wednesday to hear the results is strangely anticipated just to know ... while at the same time I could wait forever to hear the results. I could continue on in ignorant bliss.
A definitely strange and contradictory set of feelings.
It's another milestone. Has the chemo kept the tumors at bay or shrunk them? Has God chosen to do a miracle in Matt's body and life by removing the tumors? Or is God asking us to continue to glorify Him through this difficult journey?
Whether we find next Wednesday to be a day of rejoicing, or a day of facing hard news, we know that God will continue to provide the strength, grace and encouragement that we need. We know it and we claim it. We cling to Him. Please keep us in your prayers.
Hey Rosie, it's amazing how often I would prefer to remain in the dark as opposed to learning bad news about my health. It's crazy, because the more we know about our condition, the better we can deal with it, but still...Anyway, we'll be praying that the news will be great!
ReplyDeleteHey Rosie, it's amazing how often I would prefer to remain in the dark as opposed to learning bad news about my health. It's crazy, because the more we know about our condition, the better we can deal with it, but still...Anyway, we'll be praying that the news will be great!
ReplyDeleteFor sure, Rosie! I know what you mean about the contradicting becoming entangled.. it is so interesting how it does that and takes you on a very interesting journey! I love thinking about our lives as a tapestry.. the back side looks like a big mess of knots, and jumbo dumbo, but the front is God's handy work of a perfectly seeable design! We continue to pray for God's healing and miracle! To Him be the glory in ALL things, thank you for the example you guys are!! XXXXX Katie
ReplyDeleteDear Matt and Rosie, You are so right...the fear of the unknown is troubling, as well as knowing the unknown can do the same. May God continue to bless and strengthen you both for whatever tomorrow brings. Just to hide in the shelter of the Rock resting in His Arms...often a "bitter-sweet blessing to experience.
ReplyDeleteByron and Linda
Rosie I love how you are able to write down your thoughts so clearly.
ReplyDeletePraying for you.
Beth